With school nearly finished and the future prospects of having some time on my hands I find my mind wandering off to my old addiction, longing to delve in once more.
I was addicted for several years and only through sheer force of will have I been able to stay on the wagon. I bombed my freshman year because of this addiction, I was often late to work or classes because of this. There were times when, during class, this was all I could think about. It consumed my life and with graduation less than a week away, I feel the grips and hooks sinking into my flesh agitating my and calling my name like the sirens of Odysseus, just wanting my to end up crashed upon the rocks. There are times when I feel as if my life is being pulled away from me by this and others when I think it is the best in the world. There are times when I just want to blow school off right now and waste hours of my life. I have been able to stay the course mostly because school has so little time and it is important to graduate, but I could easily see myself falling back into old routines shortly after I get home from commencement and I no longer know if I want to resist or give into the pressure. Sometimes I just want to get online and log in and spend hours and hours playing world of warcraft that it is not even funny anymore. Any help?
PS I lost the game (see definition 3)